I’m a pessimist! I always have been. And with that, I have a lot of fears. The unknown is what scares me the most. But a lot of my fears were eased when I got a pug. The comfort Ref has always provided me and now Serina too has reduce so many of my fears. But now I have different fears. Fears of owning a pug. Fears generated by owning a pug.
It’s not all adorable squishy faces and curly tails. There are so many fears of owning a pug that to be honest, I don’t think are really talked that much about. Concerns yes but fears not so much. Fears of owning a pug are all of those concerns but heightened. Oh my pug…. those concerns can become so heightened. They can lead to being over cautious which can be good and bad.
But since I’m all about confessions of a pug mum, it’s time that I share my fears of owning a pug. And yes they are there even though I’ve had Ref for 7 years. Probably worse than ever really.
My biggest fear is definitely losing my first love. Mind you, I plan for Ref to live forever or at least pass the average life expectancy. So I’m aiming for him to be at least 17 but those thoughts creep into my head of “but what if he doesn’t live that long?” Even more so on those days he decides to be adventurous and slip out the front door to run around the street where he could be hit by a car. Thankfully it doesn’t happen so often anymore but when it does, I freak! I swear I experience 20 different emotions in the 5 minutes it takes me to catch him or sometimes crash tackle him.
It’s not my only fear of owning a pug though. I get terrified that I am doing everything wrong for them. I worry that Serina is not getting enough food even though I know she needs to basically be anorexic because of her hip dysplasia. I worry that I am not feeding them a balanced raw diet even though I have spreadsheets to calculate everything to make sure it is balanced. I worry that I don’t give them enough variety of proteins even though they get 8 different meats over the course of a week. I worry that I’m not doing everything I can to help Serina with her hip dysplasia even though I keep her trim and on joint supplements and injections and she she carries on like she doesn’t have any problems with her hips.
I seriously worry about every little thing. My fears of owning a pug have cost me money with extra vet visits. And I am over cautious with Serina’s health cause I don’t know her full history. But that’s not always a bad thing. In the past 12 months she has had 2 lumps appear. That’s not something you should take lightly either. Both times it wasn’t anything to be concerned about. But that fear of something seriously being wrong creeps in.
I even had these fears before I brought Ref home. I remember being at the breeders and she said Ref could come home a week early if I like. I said I would wait a week cause I didn’t have everything I needed but really it was because I was scared. Ref is my first dog that is my sole responsibility. It’s a huge responsibility and all I could think was “what if I can’t raise a puppy to be a good dog?” Those fears of owning a pug hit me hard.
I hate having these fears. But I must say, those fears can actually make you a better pug parent. It has for me. Since I wanted Ref to live a long healthy life, I looked into ways I could prevent illness from occurring. A change in diet and sticking to it was always going to be the right thing. And for Serina, finding the ways to make her feel safe, happy and healthy. It doesn’t matter how small or irrational the fears are. They are there to drive you to beat them. I’ve learnt to use them.
I often hear about the concerns people have of a pug’s general health. But not the fears…. so why not confess your fears of owning a pug. Maybe you will find another pug parent who shares your fears. Or maybe you share one of my fears. Go ahead and confess in the comments. Let’s shed some light on it!